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Giving Up

You ever wanted to give up? I have. I think about it every week. I hear the blaring sound of my phone's alarm as it wakes me from my sleep. The light from my window peaks through my lids. I gently open my eyes, I look in front of me to see my TV is still on at a low volume. I take a moment to breathe, inhale--then exhale. I lay there and turn my head to the ceiling and ask the same question, “What are you doing with your life?” I think about all things I could be doing instead of this. I could have a cool job and be vacationing and doing normal 26-year-old stuff! I lay in silence and close my eyes and I think of the options. “How can I shut this down without anyone noticing?” I review a few scenarios in my head and they all end with me leaving the country (I’m so dramatic).  Then I open my eyes, I pause and shut them again and this time I think about the number of people I can impact with my product. How many lives I can improve and how many emerging artists I can help. I open my eyes and I survey my room. Did you catch that? My Room. I take a moment to step out of myself and realized how much I have been blessed because the story could be so different.

I woke up this morning and SAW the ceiling: Thank God, for my eyesight.
I woke up this morning and was laying on my bed: Thank God, I have my bed.
I woke up this morning in my room: Thank God, for my home.
I woke up this morning and asked, “What I am doing with my life?”: Thank God, I am living, and my mind is working.
I woke up this morning and felt like giving up: Thank God, I have the aptitude to develop an idea.

Change your perspective and change your world. You see it is so easy to miss the blessings in your life when you are looking through the lenses of lack. You can be so caught up in what you don’t have or what you could be doing, it can take away the significance of what you do have and what ARE doing! Right now I may not be comfortable, but what growth comes in comfort? I may not be a huge CEO, but with a little more time my impact can be great. I get it, it isn’t easy to keep going, a matter of fact it's pretty difficult. Remember every decision you make has a point and purpose. Take a moment and think about the many good things in your life and that might begin to shift your perspective.

Feel free to email me or comment on a time that you wanted to give up. What did you do to overcome it? Or if you want to tell me how you feel about this post. I’d love to hear your feedback. I’m not a writer so feedback would help.  Thanks for reading.

-Amanda